Almost 2 years ago I made the decision to
go vegan remove dairy products from my diet. It was H-A-R-D. I had no issues NOT eating dairy, it was just that I don’t eat much variety and my options became pretty slim. I read a book (which I won’t name because then you might read it and it might affect you the way it affected me) and it literally changed my life. I thought it was a diet book and it turned out to be a vegan book that I just couldn’t put down and it took me almost 2 years to “forget” what I read. When I say “forget” I mean I still thought about it but I could still eat – which was a HUGE step at the time. It is still this way today.
For about 18 months I removed milk, yogurt, butter, eggs, and cheese from my diet. I didn’t WANT to eat any of it so it wasn’t like I MISSED anything. I wasn’t craving a hunk of cheese or a bowl of Greek yogurt – but when it came to actually eating dinner OUT it was just SO HARD TO ORDER.
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For those of you that read my original personal blog, I wrote about the first night I went out to a Turkish restaurant and the rice came out shiny. I broke down in the middle of the floor because I couldn’t tell if it was made with oil or butter and I knew right there that this decision would be a really hard one to manage. But at the time I didn’t have a choice because there was no way I was eating anything dairy related. (Please don’t ask me why – I don’t want to get into the whys – any vegan book or website can clear that up)
To this day I drink rice milk and have YET to touch an omelet or yogurt (two diet staples from my past). However, I’ve gone back to eating cheese and butter. Butter is just the hardest to avoid. THE HARDEST – it goes into everything.
Well, during the sickness madness from last week I stopped eating dairy just to be safe and I kinda want to keep up with it. Thankfully this time around it isn’t because I physically cannot think about stomaching anything dairy, it’s more about a personal decision that I am making with sound mind.
I’m slightly lactose intolerant – so I can’t really sit down with a big bowl of ice cream at night anyway. When I eat something frozen it’s usually an ice or sorbet. That’s even before all of this because my stomach is just so sensitive. And if I’m having full disclosure with all of you, I was my lowest weight EVER omitting dairy. I’m 5 5 and I was 123 pounds and not starving. It was a weight I maintained by eating normally and not exercising. So, while I probably won’t get down to that weight again because I’m a bit older, I welcome whatever might come from the change.
We’ll see how long it lasts – but I actually feel really good about the choice. Three weeks ago when I went to the market, I picked up vegan mayo and “Parmesan cheese”. It was like I knew I was going to make this decision today and I wanted to start to prep my kitchen again.
I also made a decision last night to make a salad with dinner each evening. My mother and grandmother always make a salad with their meal and when I married I didn’t bring that with me which I think is a mistake. It will be nice for my kids to grow up knowing their greens and it will be nice for me to start making healthier decisions for myself.
This isn’t saying I won’t slip up every once in a while if I visit a friend and their meal includes something that I’ve stopped eating. Like I said, this isn’t a FORCED decision as it was 2 years ago. I am not going to make myself sick over anything or make my friends uncomfortable. I’m just going to take it one day at a time.