Daily Diary: First Day Of School And Why I’m So Nervous
Honestly… I have no idea what is wrong with me today. I mean, it’s just the first day of school. We’ve done this a thousand times. We are old pros. Natalie entered 3rd grade and Liam went into 1st. This is our third school. This is our second year on the bus. There is nothing special here. No. Big. Thang.
But yet… I’m so flipping nervous today. Maybe it’s because third grade is all about “testing”. The dreaded statewide bubble answer nonsense that kids spend their entire lives prepping for has officially begun. This is when it all starts – 3rd grade. Maybe I know real school has finally started for the Sweeney family.
And I guess it doesn’t help that I don’t know many kids in my daughter’s class. I know just a handful of friends. I am most certainly going to make a MAJOR effort to get to know the parents this year. I”m talking a play date a week to make up for what happened last year while I was on bed rest. Ugh – so much to do.
Liam – I’m not so nervous about. He has 6 or 7 REALLY GOOD friends in his class. He TOTALLY lucked out this year. And we got the same teacher that Natalie had two years ago which was a double bonus. I feel really comfortable with his situation. Although, when I saw him walk up and into his school I sort of choked up a bit and I have no idea why. I’m in a very weird mood today for sure.
So now I’m sitting here trying to get all my work done so I can go food shopping and actually cook dinner tonight. And I keep catching myself looking at the clock. My heart is racing and I am just waiting for the phone to ring. One of my kids must be in trouble, right? Something must be going wrong by now….
But everything is silent. Everything is ok… I think? I don’t know what is going on with me. But I am not calm at all. I am completely on edge. This is supposed to be a joyous day. The day where I get 7 hours of free time back into my life. The day where a work schedule can get reinstated and I can have some order during the week. But instead I’m just unsettled and uneasy.
Is it 3PM yet???